Finally

I'm finally here in Seattle! The weather is great and everyone is so nice. I hung out with two freshmen today, and were all in the same major. One was named Jacob and we've been talking on Facebook. He's really nice and we talked a lot about ourselves and our lives and we fangirled/boyed together. We also hung out with a girl named Melisa who I met at registration in July. We geeked out about stuff too, especially cosplay, and I said I'd help her make hers. We hung out from like 7:30 until just now(midnight) so like 5 hours. It was a lot of fun. We also all live in the same dorm so we'll definitely be seeing more of each other. So far they are my new friend group! I can't wait to expand it tomorrow and over the next few days/weeks/months. 

When we were walking around Seattle we passed a strip club that had special theatres for gay, bi, and trans, so I though that was really cool.

It still feels so surreal, but by this time tomorrow night I'll be leaving the dance(woo!) and going home to sleep in my new bed. I think it'll really hit me then.

I've also already located the nearest McDonald's.

Anyways, big day ahead! I can't wait! 

Growing Up.

I'm growing up today.

Living life means meeting the most wonderful, important people in your life.

Growing up means leaving them behind.

Growing up means packing your entire life in 3 suitcases. 

Growing up means learning that people in the real world are not nice,

and growing up means learning how to deal with them.

Growing up means entertaining the possibility that school might not continue past the winter.

Growing up means telling your little sister "be good" for the last time for a long time.

Growing up means sharing last laughs and cuddles and brownies.

Growing up means saying goodbye in the rain.

Growing up means paying close attention to every last thing that happens on that last day.

Growing up means getting life advice.

Growing up means framing memories because growing up means causing the fear that you'll forget.

Growing up means hugging pets and pillows that will be gone in the morning.

Growing up means finally leaving that small awful town to go somewhere you can change the world,

and growing up means looking at yourself in the mirror when you get there and knowing that's exactly what you're going to do.

Growing up means laying in bed in his shirt and her shorts with ghosts of kisses on your cheek and hugs on your waist.

Growing up means pain, but none greater than the pain that will finally be relieved by getting where you were really meant to go.

Today, tomorrow morning, forever, that is what I am doing.

I am growing up.

See you later

I stand in the dark kitchen of my mothers apartment at 11:11 pm eating chocolate and wishing for everyone's happiness. there's only one more day here, in this hot desert state. 

this awful place that I hated living in and never wanted to call it my home as a child. the place I grew up and went through the toughest trials of my entire life. the place that I learned, and loved, and grew. I'm here, right now. In that place. And after tomorrow it will no longer be my home. It will never be my home again. 

The possession of such a place, a home, is fleeting. That is probably the thing I have lived and learned the most in my last couple of years. But home was always where I was going next. A friend's house, a parent's apartment, a hotel room at a convention... it changed day to day.

And now, a dorm room. A small room with a new friend where I will do all of my sleeping. 

But not all of my living. I will have my new city for that. 

New people. 

New friends means a new family.

But never my only family.

Just another.

The family I have here, back in the desert, will always have been my first real family. 

The one I met at school, or on the bus, or at a convention.

They'll always be the dearest to my heart.

And that is why I will always come back.

Until every last one has found their path and moved on, I will come back.

And even then, it won't be over.

Because you'll always have your family.

And they are mine.

I'm not saying goodbye, because it isn't goodbye. 

It's only "see you later".

One Week Left

Hey guys, I was going to start on my leaving day but I couldn't wait so I'm posting tonight.
I have one week left in Arizona and then it's goodbye to the desert! I can't wait to get out, but of course I'm also really nervous and afraid. I started packing today (with the moral support of Gillian and my silly little sister) and it's becoming so real to me, but at the same time I feel like it's all a dream.

I'm going to do my best to see friends this week even though I have so much more to do; I have to get glasses, pack my mom's, finish packing at my dad's, make a list of what to ship to the dorm, send in all my stuff to the school.... it will surely be a busy week. But tomorrow I'm visiting NSAA, so watch out for me at lunch my high school friends~

All of this is moving crazy fast and before I know it I'll be settling down to sleep in my new dorm with my new roommate in a new city thousands of miles from here. It'll surely be the adventure of a lifetime.

Intro

Hello friends! I'm going to be using this blog to talk about my experiences in Seattle at Cornish College of the Arts! I can't wait to get there and have exciting adventures, so I'll be updating(and upd9ing, and so on) everyone right here. Check back often to see what I'm up to if you please~

Along with just talking about my life I'm going to try to upload a picture I took each day because I think it'll be really cool to do (let's see if I can keep up with that).

Thanks for caring about my life and check back for more!